Nerve Dating Confessions

I know it feels like no one cares but that's not true in the slightest and if this person would show any emotional reaction to hearing this news then it's quite obvious that he cares. Don't lose faith keep strong and talk to someone just keep fighting its obvious that you are a fighter even if you don't see it within yourself

I got no reaction when I told him. None.

Maybe he feels hurt and at a loss for words on what to say. I'm sure he does care and would never want that to be your fate. However fight for yourself care about your feelings don't live for someone else live for yourself sometimes we have to help ourselves and forgive ourself

Please find a way to love yourself. Believe in yourself. Go get some proffessional help, they really can help. Live your life for you, and I promise the rest will fall into place. There are people who care, and once you care about you, you will be able to see that. Good luck, you can do it.

I know this is the worst advice ever.... and it's going to sound really mean. That's not what I intend, but I believe you need a good kick in the butt rather than some useless platitudes. Just stop trying to kill yourself!!!!! I've been seriously depressed off and on for years. I stood on the edge of a building and almost did it. I was just wallowing in it. And that type of "bad mental hygiene" just keeps you feeling bad. Depression is an emotion like any other, and can be shifted like any other. As far as the person you told who would never forgive you: maybe it's too painful for them to have you dangle the idea of suicide in front of them. Death is easy, and it would be so easy to just go to sleep. But suicide is fucking selfish to those who care about you. But mostly, it's a fucking waste. Nobody cares about your life like you should. And if you don't care, why should they? The only way out is to value yourself very highly. And to start, go skydiving with an instructor. Then you can simulate dying, and feel so so so glad that you landed safely at the end.

stp is right. Happiness is a choice. Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. And the sky diving idea is one of the best pieces of advice for someone that is battling depression that I have ever heard.

And....here it is. We've arrived at why I was desperate to die. Because dogmatic individualists like yourselves would deny even a hug to someone on the verge of suicide, and instead you would yell at them, "you have two choices, kill your own heart or die. Because there is no place in the world any more for anyone who needs connection with others in order to live, aka anyone who isn't completely emotionally self sufficient, aka a narcissist." Luckily for me i've found at least a small number of people who still believe in inter-dependence. Or I would have tried to die again and again until I had succeeded, if I really believed I was the last person left alive who wasn't a complete narcissist.

No you misunderstand. I will happily give you an internet hug. I really really need connection and I don't have it and don't know how to get it. That's why I am depressed (duh) But in my experience of going around saying "Please care for me" subconsciously, people just say "No thanks, I'd rather not." Which leads to more depression for me anyways. I can't sit around and wait for the connections I need, because they don't come! Nobody outside my immediate family gives a shit about me. And the ones who do have disappeared when they realized I was super needy. I sat in my house for quite some time, making no connections and feeling bad about the connections I didn't have. What helped me, was I saw a therapist, and finally got a shitty job with lots of people around. Then I could talk to lots of folks, in the regular course of a day with no pressure of "Please please be my friend" which was what I usually did.It made me feel a lot better. Something else that I am thinking about doing is joining a commune or an "intentional community" as they are called. Because that's as interdependent as it gets. Look it up. Best of luck.

I live in an intentional community. It's as difficult to open up to people here as it is anywhere else. But I find it helps to look for the right kind of people. the kind who would rather spend hours volunteering or having coffee with a friend than spend hours shopping. For example. Thank you for the well wishes and internet hug; I return the same to you.

I understand. I am the same. Know that LD-50 is a joke; it's for rats, and it's difficult to calculate upward from that for human mass, especially when taking variables like metabolism into account. I am still alive largely because there is no foolproof way. Hugs to you.